Am I There, Yet?

I’ve been blogging a lot of fluff lately because I haven’t been able to put into words what has been on my heart lately.  I’m going to spend some time this week trying to work through my current “valley” and hopefully I’ll stop being so dense and hear what God is trying to tell me.  I guess I’ll just start at the beginning and see where it goes.  

A few weeks ago I got to spend the weekend at the beach with a few of my girlfriends.  One night we were sitting around the living room talking (and eating, of course) and my girlfriend hands me the wrapper off of her Dove Promises Chocolate.  The inside of the wrapper said, 

I rolled my eyes and said to her, “I don’t have any dreams.”  She disagreed with me and I ignored her.  A few minutes later I grabbed a chocolate for myself and the inside wrapper said,

Later that night I went to my room and found a little care package on my pillow from another one of my weekend roomies.  In it she had put a little inspirational card that read,

I asked her if all the cards said the same and she said they were random.  She didn’t know about the earlier candy wrappers incident.

I thought this was cute and brought the wrappers home and put them up on my refrigerator.  I think that was a mistake because they’ve been screaming at me ever since.  “What’s your dream?”  “What’s your dream?”  “What’s your dream?”  It’s like a bad song that’s haunting my brain that I can’t remove, no matter how loud I turn up the other music.  It always sneaks back into my brain.

A few days ago, Josh and I were talking (I can’t even remember what about) and all of a sudden he said, “So, what’s your deal?”  That caught me off guard and I said, “What?”  He said, “What’s been on your heart lately?  What’s your dream?  What can I help you accomplish?”

In all honesty, I think I’m avoiding this nagging question because I’m really struggling with the last dream I had.  My part of the dream is over.  The dream is still alive, but God is asking somebody else to finish the task.  I’ve done all that He has asked me to…I think. 

I am really relating to Moses right now.  God asked him to lead the children of Israel out of bondage and slavery in Egypt.  God gave Moses a vision of a promised land.  This was a difficult task and Moses didn’t want to do it, but he was the one that God chose and equipped to do the task.  He could’ve said, “No.”  But, what’s the point?  Those who say “no” to God lead unfulfilling lives.  He did it.  It was painful.  But, he did what God asked him to do.  As he got to the end, God allowed him see the Promised Land.  Moses wasn’t able to go into the Promised Land.  God asked Joshua to finish the task…but, Moses got to view the land promised to them.  That’s where I feel I am.  The job isn’t done.  But, I see the promise, and know that I have to let it go in order for God to complete His work.

That’s about all I can stomach right now.  I’ll try to recap the past couple of years during another blogging moment.  For now, I want to share a devotional I ran across recently.  I don’t know who the original author is…I’ll try to do some research to give credit where credit is due.

Where there is no vision, the people perish…
Proverbs 29:18 KJV

It is important to have dreams and visions for our lives. We atrophy without something to reach for. God has created us to have goals. We need to look beyond where we are.

Our dreams and visions are simply hope for a better tomorrow. When God plants a seed of something in our heart, at that point it is a possibility, but not a ‘positively’. That seed must be cared for properly.

Quite often the LORD attempts to place something in our heart and we fail to conceive that He really means what He is saying. We must remember that we cannot get pregnant with a dream or a vision unless we are able to conceive. Practically speaking, that refers to our thoughts.

We must believe a thing to be possible. We must be able to conceive it in our thoughts. If we do get past the conception, there is still the pregnancy to go through. There is much planning and preparation before the birth. Satan does everything he can to get us to abort our dreams and visions.

God has a vision for your life and He desires to plant it in your heart. Don’t have a ’spiritual abortion’. Give birth to all that God has placed within you.

Say this : I will not give up the dreams and visions God has placed within my heart. I am determined to see them through to the end.